With No Way as Way
There
is a brief moment when you realize that the universe and everything else that
you take for granted, isn’t exactly what you thought it was. You are instantly overcome by circumstances
so out of your control that you question the very nature of reality itself. Up is in fact down, left is now right, black
is white, and things that made sense just a few moments ago, now seem all too “Lewis
Carol”. You have fallen down the rabbit
hole, and reality is not that comfy cozy thing that you have become accustomed
to.
That
brief span of time is known as an “oh-no” second, as in “Oh no! I just sent
that personal email to all!” Chaos is
more than a collapse toward entropy; it is a twisting, yawing mindbender of an
event that smashes our ordered, mundane world like a giddy toddler knocking
down building block towers. With all the
subtly of a gloriously demented game of Jenga, our lives can suddenly collapse
from order into a frightening freefall of epic fail. In the blink of an eye, we are spun about on
the wheel of fate, only to find ourselves succumbing to the vagaries of chance.
In the
past I would cry and bemoan my circumstances. Now, I am beginning to find
acceptance of the uncontrollable nature of life in the 21st century. I am learning that there is no way, there is
no path. The route ahead is unexplored
and hazardous, full of dreadful missteps and wondrous adventures. Yes, there be dragons and dangerous shoals
ahead, but they are not showstoppers, just merely obstacles to be avoided,
worked around.
I only
know that my time is finite and my destination lies far to the west, beyond the
setting sun. With the clock ticking, I
set out once more. My course is uncertain; will it lead me to the solution, or
another dead end? Who can say; I only
know that my path is built one stone at a time.
I carve it out between sunrise and sunset, step by step, fighting chaos,
clinging to order, hoping, dreaming, laughing, loving, one day…one moment at a
time.
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