With No Way as Way
There is a brief moment when you realize that the universe and everything else that you take for granted, isn’t exactly what you thought it was. You are instantly overcome by circumstances so out of your control that you question the very nature of reality itself. Up is in fact down, left is now right, black is white, and things that made sense just a few moments ago, now seem all too “Lewis Carol”. You have fallen down the rabbit hole, and reality is not that comfy cozy thing that you have become accustomed to.
That brief span of time is known as an “oh-no” second, as in “Oh no! I just sent that personal email to all!” Chaos is more than a collapse toward entropy; it is a twisting, yawing mindbender of an event that smashes our ordered, mundane world like a giddy toddler knocking down building block towers. With all the subtly of a gloriously demented game of Jenga, our lives can suddenly collapse from order into a frightening freefall of epic fail. In the blink of an eye, we are spun about on the wheel of fate, only to find ourselves succumbing to the vagaries of chance.
In the past I would cry and bemoan my circumstances. Now, I am beginning to find acceptance of the uncontrollable nature of life in the 21st century. I am learning that there is no way, there is no path. The route ahead is unexplored and hazardous, full of dreadful missteps and wondrous adventures. Yes, there be dragons and dangerous shoals ahead, but they are not showstoppers, just merely obstacles to be avoided, worked around.
I only know that my time is finite and my destination lies far to the west, beyond the setting sun. With the clock ticking, I set out once more. My course is uncertain; will it lead me to the solution, or another dead end? Who can say; I only know that my path is built one stone at a time. I carve it out between sunrise and sunset, step by step, fighting chaos, clinging to order, hoping, dreaming, laughing, loving, one day…one moment at a time.